Looking back over my 2014 Awesomeness Project, I could almost throw my hands up in the air and admit defeat, it appears things may have gone less than awesome. Or have they?
I started off with a hiss and roar on the Path to Awesomeness then my Quest Continued… and from there it may have got a little bleak with lost mojo, sleepless nights, and panic attacks. But things have taken a turn, on Thursday I handed in my resignation, not because I’d won Lotto or had a fabulous new job to go to but simply because I value my mental health and my happiness too much. Some may see this as failing or giving up, but I see it as truly challenging myself and putting me first.
I look forward to what’s around the corner, I’m excited (and of course a little scared) about the uncertain future but I know it’s what I need. I still have to work out my notice but just knowing the end is near, and change is around the corner makes me feel 10kg lighter.
Quitting without another job to go to is scary, so scary, but surprisingly enough I’m handling this better than the previous weeks at work. I’ve always prided myself on how hard I work and I’m certainly not a lazy employee. I’ve worked hard in my current role for over 3 years and for my current employer for almost 6 years… and within the same company for 8 years.
It’s frightening to move on from my little work family, and into the unknown but perhaps this is my quarter-ish* life crisis and this is just something I have to do.
(As a side note, if you know of any jobs send me a message…)
*Please note the use of “ish”