Have you been held hostage by a planner? You know… one of those hardcover diaries that you slip into your handbag and cart around like a proper adult. The kind of planner where you jot down your to-do list, appointments and all manner of important information. Have you ever been held to ransom by one? Okay, maybe it’s just me?! I’d seen people using bullet journals, and seemingly magical High Performance planners to sort their lives and get shit done! I wanted to be one of those organised, on-top of shit people, with a healthy balanced lifestyle, ticking things off and getting shit done. So I searched for something that would work for me. ** In steps the Full Focus Planner** I can’t even tell you where I first saw the planner, but I ordered via the Full Focus website and a new one was going to show up every quarter (no pressure). In hindsight that should’ve been the moment that I realised that this was no ordinary Warehouse Stationery jobbie – a 3 month planner with a multiple goal and planning pages, tick boxes, weekly previews and weekend optimising pages was more than a slight step up from dated […]
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I live with anxiety and depression. It’s not all consuming but it’s there, and it’s something I’m forever refining my coping strategies for. I deliberately say ‘live with‘ rather than ‘suffer from‘ because some how using the term ‘suffer‘ in reference to my own life… feels like a frightening self full-filling prophecy. Anxiety vs Nervousness or Stress It’s hard to explain anxiety to someone who doesn’t live with it. People often believe it’s the same as being nervous, or stressed and don’t understand the crippling, strangling feeling that unexplainable panic can bring. Yes, in some situations feeling a little anxious is totally normal, things like public speaking or sitting an exam tend to make most people feel nervous. However, what separates my anxiety from stress or bog-standard worry, is that the intensity is considerably out of whack to the actual likelihood or even possible impact of the event or events. Yes, a certain amount of anxiety is normal or even helpful… it helps you get shit done, and to react accordingly to external stresses or potential threats (think bears, bullies and boogie monsters), but where normal worry or nervousness usually calms once the moment has passed, anxiety tends to fester […]
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I’ve been pretty quiet on the blog post front, forgetting that writing was my ‘soul medicine‘, I let it slip by the wayside. I gave up setting aside time to write and any attempts became well and truly half-arsed. The perfectionist in me felt it was only worth doing and worth sharing if it was 100% awesome all the time and bang on brilliant content! So half written articles piled up, and constantly looming on my to do list was “WRITE” or “BLOG“… in bold and underlined (because underlining helps) I forgot why I started writing. I forgot what I enjoyed about it and I let myself be derailed by others people’s writing success… Although it wasn’t just writing that fell by the wayside, I somehow dropped a lot of what I enjoyed. I became focused on what other people were doing, what I wasn’t invited to and eventually the things I was missing out because of COVID19. My own self-doubt and self-loathing was beginning to undo me. I’ve known for a while that I’ve needed to take action, perhaps see a counsellor or maybe go on some kind of magically rain forest retreat. The current solution of anti-depressants and […]
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